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I am not new on tumblr. I hide behind many many more cooler blogs. This is just a place for me to vent a bit. I wish I was someone else,just for a day. You know, just to feel like not to be yourself and see how you act and what you think of your self. I want to completely change myself so starting tomorrow I am not going to eat..much. I am going to hide myself behind my new growing and boring personality. No more laughing at stupid stuff or having much fun. I am going to focus on becoming a new person and becoming that person for ever because it seems that if a person is to outgoing and a little loud she’s not good enough for people. I have a lisp also. Having a speech problem can drive a crazy outgoing person into a shell. That’s where i am going a shell. Today a kid 2 grades young came up to me and made fun of me. How do you think that made me feel? Nothing I tried to block it out but Its still stings you know? Am I a freak because I can’t say my S normally. My dad said he would be disappointed in me if I want to speak therapy because “my lisp is what makes me. Me.” Well dad I don’t want to be know for that. I couldn’t even get a job at a restaurant because of it. I am now a paper bitch in a office. I still get payed what a restaurant would pay you but why couldn’t they have call and had a interview with me. I don’t know. Today I asked my friend what she would do if we weren’t friends.she never answered me. I guess that’s it today. Thanks for listening. More sooner or later. It really doesnt matter